무의식 속 억눌린 감정, 실제 경험으로 풀어낸 감동 이야기

The things I thought were taken away were actually just teachers In fact, I had that kind of experience because of what I stole as much.

 It's easy for people to accept that they've been harmed.

 Everyone has a lot of unfair things.

 In life, but did you make others feel unfair? Who did I hurt? I guess that's a bit hard to accept Of course I did too But in fact, if we suffered any damage, it was because we did so much damage.

 Because everything in the universe exists with plus and minus So I have an idea that helped me to accept this idea a little bit.

 Have you seen the movie 'Everything Everywhere All At Once'? If you watch that movie, there is a female protagonist named Evelyn.

 However, it turns out that the heroine lives in a lot of Avelines in a lot of parallel universes.

 So right now I'm living like this in this life, but if you go to another parallel universe, those Evelyns come from other countries living completely different lives with completely different jobs.

 Evelyn lives in another universe, so Evelyn immigrates to the United States and runs a laundry while her husband asks for a divorce, and her daughter doesn't listen again and is living such a difficult life.

 The Evelyn of "Become a famous actress and become successful, become a very famous singer, become a person who is very good at martial arts, become a successful chef who is very good at cooking, and live a successful life, and the real Evelyn is the other Evelyn.

 She is the kind of Evelyn who is the most inferior and has the most troubled life.

 I had a fear of being abandoned, so there was a meditation that helped me to understand something while purifying that fear.

 So when I meditated, I imagined myself being abandoned.

 I've been abandoned by everyone I became a beggar because I was abandoned by my family, my friends, my boyfriend, and the students I work with, and even by Reiki.

 Of course, I imagined myself losing all my money and becoming sick and beggar with nothing, but as I imagined it like that, the beggar myself was talking to me, 'Can you love a country like this?' I'm asking But the moment I heard that, I had a realization as if I had been hit in the head.

 So, I, a beggar in the world, was also living there, but I was ashamed of myself, a beggar, so 'I couldn't acknowledge him', 'I kept trying to avoid him as if he were a little different from me', 'I let him do that', 'I kept trying to ignore him or try to avoid him' I realized So, in fact, just as the inferior Evelyn lives in that parallel universe, I, the beggar, also live in another parallel universe.

 I was really abandoned and hurt by everyone, 'I' living there, but I couldn't even admit the possibility that I was living like that.

 'Cause I'm afraid it might happen in real life, but it can happen.

 Anyone can experience being abandoned.

 In fact, there are too many people in the world who live abandoned like that.

 But it's not just those people who experience it, we could experience it too.

 So, the experience of being abandoned can happen to anyone, but that doesn't happen to me.

 I thought that it was their business that had nothing to do with me.

 I might be abandoned someday, and I might actually be living in another parallel universe.

 So, I couldn't admit it, but the moment I heard that, I thought, 'Oh, I couldn't acknowledge this me as myself', and now I'm sorry, so I shed tears.

 That friend no longer had a problem with being abandoned by others, but being abandoned by me was a huge pain.

 Because I couldn't acknowledge that friend as me until now, so I'm sorry, and you also say 'I'm sorry that I couldn't acknowledge you' and 'I'm sorry I couldn't accept you' and cry while meditating like that and send you Reiki and acknowledge it I, the beggar, said thank you for accepting me and kept saying that you hated me and wanted to avoid me and didn’t acknowledge me, but I kept saying that it was so hard for me to exist in the world of you.

 So it was a meditation that made me realize a little while feeling very sorry.

 So what I felt was, "I have to admit my inferiority, but I can become a superior me.

" If there is inferiority, there must be superiority, and to have superiority, there must be inferiority, but I don't admit my inferiority and keep chasing superiority.

 And so, as the balance is broken, problems keep arising.

 Because there can't be only one I have to balance So, in order to live as a superior me, I realized that it is not just about pursuing superiority, but that I have to have both the superior and the inferior me so that I can take advantage of the superior me only when I accept both of them as myself.

 So, after that meditation, if there is a moment when I feel uncomfortable again, I think I will use the 'you are me skill'.

 'You are me' and 'That you are also in a parallel universe right now' 'You must exist as another me' I keep practicing putting it in that boundary.

 Not too long ago, I did another purification for the feelings of being taken away.

 Until now, I think there were a lot of things that I thought were taken away.

 So even when I meet people, when I meet people, I like to be alone because I am afraid that things like this will be taken away from me, and I think there have been many times.

 actually it's me So, there are people who take things like that and do it selfishly.

 I hated people who just acted selfishly.

 I don't really like it right now, but now the reason I felt uncomfortable seeing such selfish people is because I was actually a selfish person.

 There is such a selfish side in me, but I was hiding it because of these feelings, 'I can't reveal that I'm selfish', 'If people reveal that I'm selfish', 'They won't love me' That's why I felt uncomfortable when I saw people who didn't hide their selfishness but revealed it.

 I imagined another me living in a parallel universe in such a selfish way, and I think I acknowledged it like this: 'Yes, you are me too' 'Because I am the one who steals like that' So, in the past, 'I gave more to others' and 'I never took it away, but I'm selfish?' 'Did I do selfish harm?' I thought, but I think I'll accept it I think people think a lot like that 'I am a very kind person' Just like I was, 'I am a kind person, so I am a person who gives to others' 'I am not a person who steals and acts selfishly' 'I am a very altruistic person' that there is And if I'm going to be altruistic, I have to be selfish too I need to have both of them I think everyone is altruistic and selfish.

 But if I say 'I'm only altruistic', in order to balance that out, the selfish me keeps showing up as other people.

 In my reality, so now I am the one who is so selfish.

 So I had to admit that it was me.

 Also, while thinking about that, I thought that the people who did something wrong to me in the past were the perpetrators, but what got me a little goosebumps was that I saw again that before they actually did something wrong to me, I did it first.

 So, when we watch the video again, what we couldn't see in the past, now that we look at it from an objective point of view, we can see what we did wrong.

 I took something precious from them first.

 I stole it and hurt them, so they also hurt me, so I took it from me, did that kind of harm, and acted selfishly.

 But I forgot all the mistakes I had done and remembered what they did to me later, saying, 'It's selfish, it's bad, I'm avoiding it.

 I was thinking 'I am a victim' Looking back on the past, I was very sorry.

 'How much I must have hurt and made it difficult for them' 'We were very fond of each other' 'We were in love' 'I wonder if they acted to harm me like that' 'They did the same thing' 'How hard it was and how painful it must have been to do that act' Now I think about it Again, tears flowed and I reflected, and I apologized while sending Reiki again, and I spent this time So I became very free.

 The things I thought I had been victimized up until now, the things I thought I had taken away, were actually just teachers.

 In fact, I had that kind of experience because of what I stole as much.

 After acknowledging that, I feel very comfortable and I think I have let go of the past.

 After that, I don't think I get very angry when I see selfish people.

 It's not that I don't get angry at all, but compared to before, it's not uncomfortable and I'm just a little more comfortable.

 I think I'm going to go ahead and say, "That's one of my features.

" So in the end, I think the way to get out of these unwanted things is to admit that humans have these ambivalences, that the parts I dislike, that the person I dislike are actually me, that I have these ambivalences, and accept them as me.

 Accepting that makes life easier Ironically, I just accept it as 'me' Then it disappears I think it's so strange The fact that it happened itself happened because I was trying to hold on to only those good things on one side because I didn't acknowledge my ambivalence, so it's happening to balance the broken balance.

 If you balance it, it will be empty.

 When it becomes plus and minus, it becomes zero now, and when it becomes zero, it just becomes empty and that empty space has only love.

 This is a phrase often used in mirror meditation.

 That's why it doesn't happen anymore.

 Even if the people I hate disappear from my life, the people who made me uncomfortable move to another place, or if I meet the same people who made me so uncomfortable again, I no longer feel as uncomfortable as before, I don't get angry, I can just see them comfortably.

 This makes life more and more comfortable In doing so, I feel more joy, peace, happiness, and these good feelings in my life, and then the quality of life improves, I become healthy, and that way my life becomes more comfortable.

 So today I talked about this topic.

 When I release and acknowledge my suppressed emotions, I think my spiritual growth is gradually accelerating.

 And it seems to be a bigger help to develop as a Reiki Healer.

 I also keep looking at my inner self and working on healing.

 In the end, if there is a side of me that I can't accept like this, it's the same when I treat other people.

 If other people have something like me that is difficult to accept, it becomes difficult to accept them, and I think the things I can do are getting narrower and narrower.

 It is within the scope of what I can do, so in the end, I think that it is essential to do this work in order to grow into a bigger leader and to accept and embrace more people while doing Reiki and grow together, so I continue to purify my emotions like this.

 I am working I'm still writing on my blog on this subject.

 I will post a link to the blog post, so if you read it, it will help you again.

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